Thinking of a Lost Friend

I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw your name after rest in peace
I thought it was a joke, we didn't talk that deep to each other but we were still friends.
I painic to find if this could be so
and I found the sad truth
you`re gone.

A week ago you were sitting right next to me eating lunch
I remember you telling about your dreams
how you will one day take the stage and
I thought maybe one day we would meet again
Ill be lucky to light the stage to you
to the world.
I cant believe that day will never come.

I dont know why you hit me so hard
but you did and no one really saw
how hard you hit my heart.
Maybe it was the guilt that we didnt talk deep to each other
was there anything I could had said that could have stop you?
Or maybe its that I think of others that almost felt this pain
and will make sure they wont feel it.
Maybe I think we were so much alike in a way
and wonder how i got so lucky and
why you didnt  have support
I know you desver it.
Where was it?

But what hurts the most is that you were right next to me
I watched you played cards
I watch your face light up
when you talked about musicals we both knew
you were so happy that you had someone
to share your love for the theatre.
Why will those days never come with you lighting them up?

You were right next to me
now you're so far away
I thought I would  hear of you taking the stage by storm
or just about how you are doing and
I did hear of you
it schoked my mind
that made things lonely for some reason
I wish that day never came.

I cant believe those days you had ahead of you will never come
all those moments that you were going to share with those that you loved
will never come.

I hope you are safe and at peace
but I hope you know that every now and again
you cross my mind and a tear is let out
because I wonder and think of those
days that will never come for you.