Where Are You?

Saying your name hurts now
it so much pain that it puts tears in my eyes.
Where are you?
You told me that you love me
and told you that for the first time
a loved anyone like this.
Where are you?
I cant seem to smile or fake one
I cant seem to laugh without faking it
I cant seem to stop thinking about you
even thought you are hurting so much.
Where are you?

You said you call when you got home
what happen to the call
did you forget?
Im still waiting
waiting for you and I dont why
when are abusing my hert like this.
Where are you?

People say to move on
to forget about you
but it feels like no one really understands
why I keep holding on
All I know is a keep holding on even though it hurts me like hell.
Where are you?
They can tell how much Im hurting
I even have the scras to prove it.
Where are you?

I search everywhere for you
trying to get to know if you are dead and alive
why did you leave without a word
I thought I desever at least a word .
You don't answer your phone
or anything fir that matter
all I only call hoping one day you will answer
and just to listen to your voice.
Where are you?

I miss everything about you
I miss hearing your voice everyday.
I miss you trying to keep me away from my studies.
I miss your arms wrap around me.
I miss how you got to my height
so I could kiss you.
I miss your lips
I miss listening to your heart
I miss feeling the other half of my heart.
Where are you?

Where are you?
Why did you leave like this?
You made me feel so numb
that I did anything to feel again
you scared me so much
I don't even know
how to heal my broken heart
without having the other piece of it.
Where are you?

It all feels too late
that I cant go back to what I knew
without you
nothing feels right or the same.
I just want to close my heart and never open it again.
You made it soft and warm and now
you make numb and cold.
Where are you?
The sick thing is that I keep thinking about you
when I shouldn't and at tells I see you in mind.

Wheres your reasons?
Are you alive?
Are you dead?
Where are you?
I just don't understand
and hurts the most is that I might never get the chance to
and that you will probably never get the chance to read this.
Whey are you hurting like this?
You told me you would never leave
so where are you?
Breaking my heart slowly
abusing its love
Where are you?

Shes Hiding

She combs her hair
To cover up her face
Doesn't want any one to see. 
Doesn't want anyone to see the scars
That are in the inside

She doesn't say a word 
Of the night before. 
Yeah, she fought a battle
And doesn't know
How she is still standing 
In the morning.

She wears her hair down 
Covering her eyes
Wearing a hood 
Hiding from the world 
And keeping her secrets from the world. 
She bites her tongue 
Afraid to let any words come out
Not knowing what would happen
If she let the world knew. 
Her wounds are in the inside 
And only has scars on the outside.

Hair covering up her eyes 
Hoping no one will see 
Cause she doesnt know what to say
she doesn't want to lie,
She doesn't what anyone to worry. 
So she puts on a hood
And walks through the day in silence.

I Just Wonder

Its the perfect weather here
the sky is blue and the sun is out
not a cloud in sight.
I wonder if you would call it a perfect day
I think you would.
Theres a breeze
so its not too hot.
I wonder if you had anything to do with it
is this your idea of a perfect day
and are you sharing it with it
knowing what today is?
I just wonder.

I dont know what it is like back home
probably goomly and colder
with your passing.
While here it is sunny
with the sky so blue
and the wind blowing through the palm trees.
This is probably a perfect day in your eyes.
I just wonder.

I wonder if you knew
that you were apart of an unqiue family
with many different characters.
I wonder.
Did you know that in your way
you made left a paw print on my heart
I say paw print because we are cougars?
I wonder.

The sky is clear
the sun is out
the breeze flows through the palm trees.
Is this your perfect day?
I wonder.
I hope you knew that every year
I was appracated for the work you did
we all were.
I just wonder
did we thank you enough.
I just wonder.
You had a skill
to make a world come to life
on stage with the clothes
you crafted
making the time period real.
I just wonder.

I know you will never read this
but I hope you hear this
through those that loved you
through those that you left your paw print on.
I just wonder
will you hear this up there
I just wonder.

The weather is perfect here
the sun shinning bright
the sky is blue
without a clould in sight.
I just wonder
is this your idea of a perfect day
and are you sharing it with us
to let us know that you are okay
up there.
I just wonder....