Finding a Place of Safety Again

Trying to let you know
and then you brush it off like its nothing
all I hear is laughter in the wind
under your words.
I can see the miss understanding
in your eyes its okay
not many people do.

Soon I'll be back with people
who know everything and will see it a mile away
with me saying a word.
I think about them
which is what truly stops me in my tracks.

I'll have to teach others
with time to learn
my tracks of  trades
teach them how I hide
and when I'm not.

I'll find those again
find new ones with time
where asking for a hug
wont seem so strange or weird.
When I wont be afraid
to show tears.

Truly all I'm looking for
is one place where I can feel safe
once again.
I know it wont be easy
but I have to try.
That's all it takes
I know it
and once I find this place
then something will feel normal for once.

That's what I miss
and I plan to find it within time
first part
take the first step
the difftical step.