Missing You

Do you know what

Came on the radio

as I drove  to work,  

work was your  home?

It was a song

you  pointed

Out to me.

I remember you saying

Who does that remind you of?

And I said, without a pause,

 “ you”

 we both laughed.

A smile finds my face

 I remember you,

 then a tear runs down my face

you are gone.

I miss you immensely.

I know I will never

Get to hear your laughter

Again.

I pull up to work.

I’ve been in and out

Since you told me

You were gone.

The news hit me so hard

That I couldn’t fake

The sadness in

My heart.

Where are you now

To lite up my heart with gladness?

I get to my office.

I see your picture

There. I pick it up.

The moment plays

In my head.

And I smile

I laugh.

I read the back,

Remembering you put a message there,

 It touches my heart.

You never did anything

Normal

That I know of

You had such a

Creative mind.

Did you know that?

I put it back in place

Where I can see it

And others can too,

because I was not ashamed

Of you-

I never was.

Did you know that?

Would you have believed that?

I get settled in

And a friend walks by.

 Again, I laugh and say,

“It’s because of our inside joke about him.”

He asks, “what is it?”

I tell him it was something

That you said.

He asks how I’ve been,

Taking you being gone,

and I miss you

And I tell him, “I’m getting

Through it.”

We both sit down,

I ask him the same Question and

 he says he honestly  

 can’t believe it,

 it hurts.

It hurts me knowing

you will never

Walk through those doors

And make us laugh and smile.

Do you know

In this building

You touched a lot of people

and you matter to them?

I know you didn’t always

See that,

But they are all crying,

Or have cried,

Hearing about the news

That you are gone.

Someone stops me in

The hallway.

we both smile and laugh

Because of you,

And it’s crazy,

 At times it feels like

You are here with us

Again.

You were strange about

Showing your feelings.

 I remember how

You asked for a hug,

Something so simple;

And yet for you

It was strange.

Oh, How I wish I can hold you in my arms again

Sheltering you from the world

Having some control of keeping you safe.

The snow is falling.

 The holidays

Are getting closer

 you couldn’t wait

to see us again;

The idea lit up

Your voice.

I hope you know

That at times

 I think of you

And wonder about

The person you

Would have become.

Sometimes I smile and laugh

At our moments

That play in my head.

At times I cry

My heart out,

 then I get

This feeling

You are right here

With me,

 you never left.

You will never be forgotten,

Not because you had a major

Impact on the world,

But because of your

Love for all of us here.

 you impacted

Our lives and

Touched our hearts

And we are

Thankful for that.

I miss you and

I love you

Always