I Put My Shades On

Wake up the light in the world hurts my eyes
I put my shades on
head is exploding
I put my shades on
wish I had an eye problem to never take them off again
trying to hide the truth they hold
I put my shades on
they are they're shield
trying to hide the pain

Wake up
it feels like a black eye
was I in a fight?
No blackness
but it feels like its there.
So I put my shades
afraid to take them off
feeling like I should hide from the world
to blend with the walls and the floor
hoping no one will see.

Wake up
in tears
heart pounding
thoughts come back
that I thought were long gone.
My reasons seem
not to be good enough
but my heart knows they
are important enough
and fight that cant seem to stop
until I surrendered
which I know I cant to
cause that's giving up on
all those I care about.
I put my shades on
the light hurts
my eyes
the world feels darker than it really is
and I just want to hide away.
I put my shades on
trying to feel some control.

So I put my shades on
only few people can get me to take them off
cause they already see pass the shades
and know what already is going though
my head.
Sometimes words are needed and sometimes
the smallest action without words
are just important.

Can you see behind the shades?